What a pain in the body!
Today I was a raging mad woman. I stayed up until 5 am in the morning just putting myself in overwhelmed mode! I was cleaning out the spare room cause company is coming next week. I started on that room move something in to another spot then started cleaning my room. It just went on like that until 5 am I look around my whole upstairs and freak out it was like a hurricane went threw the whole place!!
So at 5 am I finally made myself go to sleep. Then my daughter came home from backshift and figure why not bug mom at 8 something in the morning! You'd think she'd let me sleep when I tell her I have a freaken migraine and went to bed three hours earlier! My head felt like it was splitting apart! I told her over and over again let me sleep cause my grandfather was coming to get me at 12pm to take me to the pool so I could get some exercise. For being 20 years old she can really act like a 2 year old. We got into it I told her just leave me alone I needed to get rest. She really pissed me off let me tell yah when she said " You don't work you can sleep anytime". I find my daughter is so disrespectful more and more these days. I've been off of work for 3 weeks I work from spring to mid summer at the greenhouse my parents own. I'm starting to think I should call her mom. She tells me off ect. So I exploded I couldn't take her bull anymore by this time I was sick to my stomach from the migraine and her being needy. Thanks god my grandfather showed up and I went swimming. By the time I got to the pool my whole body was racked with pain. Every nerve in my body was shooting these little shock of pain everywhere. My neck and shoulder were aching so bad I couldn't walk right.
I was ready to leave but remember that my granddad was taking my cousin & her man over to the flea market for an hour while I swam. So I figured get in and float for awhile. I met a really nice lady. She goes to the pool like I do to get exercise to. I didn't talk to her much cause my head was throbbing so bad. Also I'm sorta shy and didn't know what to talk about at that time. So as time went on I started to feel a bit better. As soon as I started to feel better a panic attack started to arise out of no where. Man I thought this all I need. I started to go into the OMG I'm starting to freak mode. I feel like I'm in a dream and not in the room ( hard to explain). My heart starts to beat fast, I feel lighthead. I feel like I'm going to faint and drown . My stomach starts to really hurt. I want to just run somewhere safe but there wasn't anywhere safe to run. So I started to do my relaxing technique. I also keep telling myself if something happens to me this nice lady is here so she'll make sure that I'm ok if I faint. Thanks god the woman had her back to me doing exercise cause I can imagine the look on my face as I was going through the motion! lol I have to laugh! Cause it makes it real to me. I hate the fact that I have panic and anxiety disorder but I have to live with it. It's a part of me. Got through that and it was time to go home.
Got home went to sleep woke up to an Asthma attack and my twisted bowl started to act up. I thought why? Then I thought why not. So I rested and felt better then cleaned. Then lo & behold I started to see my upstairs again. Well that's the just of my day. Very sad but true!!!lol
Anywho if you want some help with being a scatter brain just call me over I'll show you how to do it in a flash. It's simple just pull everything out that you want to be done in every room then once that done just have a look around and your overwhelm will kick in overdrive in no time!! lol
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Hope your migraine feels better hun, I get 4-5 REALLY bad ones a year. So bad I can't even leave the house (light, noise etc).
Get better and relax about the guests
Ouch! Sounds like a generally crappy day! I can't believe you were up until 5 am cleaning! Holy cow! :) Hope today is better for you!
Your right Lone I should relax about the company I've been this way all my life and this is one thing I'm going to change. Today I feel better Thanks
Titania I do feel better today thanks. I have a habit of doing stuff like this at night I guess I like the peace and quite. I'm backwards I guess lol
I find NONE of the kids nowadays even know what respect is! When U teach them, they block it from their conscious mind--forever!
...it seems 2 B all of 'em....
Dr.john sent me....
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Starbender is right...very few kids these days seem to grasp the idea of respect. My own kids (who were raised better) are guilty, too. I guess I should be glad that while I have to endure their mouthy snottiness, they do seem to be polite and respectful away from home.
Hope you're feeling much better today. Dr. John sent me.
5am cleaning eeeeeeeeeeeek!!!!!!!
Oh those panic attacks are awful. I only had a few at a time of terrible crisis and they are real scary.
dr. john sent me to say hi by the way.
Hope your next day is a better one.
Oh no, I thought 20 year olds acted more grown up! I guess I will have that to look forward to with my kids. Your grandfather gets around a lot.
I hope you have a better day. Sent by Dr. John, a guy who randomly selects posts for his readers to enjoy.
I am sent by Dr John.
I clean the same way but not at 5:oo AM It does help to have someont there to make you focus.
Hope you have a better day tomaorrow.
Hope yah feel better. From Dr.johns I like your blog lay out.
My niece always cleans her house like this. She empties the entire room then puts everything back. I am much too lazy for that!
I have had a couple of anxiety attacks. They are horrid. I think you did well to not run off and lock yourself in a bathroom stall.
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This Is Crazy Object B. Again with D.f.f and she comes from Dr.john as well here is her comment. I had a headace too last night. I really hope you feel beter tommorow
Hi.....I am also here via of Dr. John.
I can really feel for you, it sounds like you have Irritable Bowel Syndrome as well as a couple other things that make life really hard. I share some of them with you, Migraines, IBS, I don't have anxiety, luckiy. Why is it kids seem to think our time is their time, exclusively. I wonder how they are going to be with their own children. Anyway, you need a walk in the garden without stress. PS. Don't clean for company....I quit a few years back, and it was so nice.....I just let them see the house the way we live. It isn't really ever that bad.....and besides.....if they don't like it, they can clean for you. haha
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