I'm Lost

All I can say for now is that I feel like a lost soul. With all that has happen in my life in the last 3 years hasn't been easy on me. Watching everything fall apart at the seams really can get to someone. I've been really doing some soul searching about what I can do to change stuff but it makes me so tired and sad I just give up. I know I'm so emotionally spent not sure if I can get it back to the way it was.

My memory from the stress has gone I can't remember a min ago. It is really starting to get to me. I repeat myself because I forgot that I told someone something. My hair has fallen out so much you see my scalp. I need a wig. I'm so tired of it all. I really need to get away for a bit. But I know it will just make things worse. I can't run from. I have to go through every feeling with my heart and soul.

But I'm just whining right now. Mel is trying to get through all of this too. I'm there for my girl doesn't matter what mood I'm in. I just hope good things will start coming our way soon. Man I sound like a Selfish whiner. But I have to get this out. I'm so tired of doing this alone. I'm truly thankful Mel has Al to lean on.

Going through the motions alone can really take a toll on a person. Somedays I wish that my husband would notice this but hey one day I will find what I'm looking for. Anyways we are getting through this one day at a time. There were some good things that happened but I need to get through this mood to tell them. So please don't feel sorry for me. I'm just thankful your just there to listen to me. I may not make sense but it's wonderful to know that I have some great blogger friends that care about what Mel and I think and do. I will be catching up on all your blogs this week. I've been so busy with work and other stuff I'm just to tired right now.

Sending so many hugs and love your way!!
Cherlee