Well I missed it here so I'm back

I'm going to try to put stuff up here again. I've missed it here. So in the next little while I will put up stuff I like. So talk soon

Many hugs
~Cherlee~

Happy Birthday Melanie!

Today is my daughters 22nd Birthday! I'm so very proud of far she has come! I made her a video of pics but not sure how to post I may post it sometimes here! Anyways gotta run laters
Hugs
Cherlee

Just me

Wow time does fly. I only have two weeks of work left and then I'm on layoff. I don't really look forward to it. No more money for awhile but that's been my life for 11 years now. Smiles seem to come much easier these day. I look at my grandson and see the wonder in his beautiful blue eyes. Even thinking about him now I smile. He's going to be 10 months tomorrow!!

This is short but sweet I gotta get ready for bed. I will write soon.

Anywho need to smile find a sweet little baby sweet and innocent and try to imagine looking through their little eyes and you'll see such a world of wonder. It's so sweet!

Sending many hugs and much love your way
~Cherlee~

Loses

For the last year all I keep thinking about is the lose of my ex. How he was so young to leave this world. And on the 20th of May it will be a year. I have a hard time dealing with this at the best of times. Death is such a final thing. You can't go back and try to help or make it better for others or yourself.

May has been a month of loses. I lost my Uncle to suicide on the 7th of May 5 years ago. I think about him a lot this time of year. It breaks my heart to see my mother and my grandfather miss him so. I wish I could just bring him back to them like I wish I could bring my ex back to all the ones that truly love him. I know I can't but I wish I had the power to make it alright.

Yesterday my mom informed me about another uncle that is on life support and they are just waiting for my cousin to get back from a vacation she was on to pull the plug. They all live in another province and it was a shock for the whole family. I walked around with my head in a cloud yesterday. Shocked once again the tears flowed once more in the month of May for another lose of a love one. Then last night my mom calls at 10:45 pm and I knew it wasn't good news. A good friend of mine her mother just passed yesterday morning. This was a shock because we thought it would be her dad first. She's coming down tomorrow night from the states where she lives to be her with her family. Her sister and I were friends first and have losted touch but she was a wonderful friend and I will call her tomorrow.

Her mom was really neat. I thought she was great. My heart goes out to her so much. Last year when my friend was home for a visit she called to come visit and I had to tell her my ex died and was dealing with stuff and she said she'll make sure she will visit me the next time she's home. Well she was making a trip in June to see everyone. But she has to make the visit a month early. Not a happy time for her and her family. This month is so full of loses. And each year the loses are harder to deal with but I know I can help my friend by being there if she wants me to.

It helps to help other and to let them know that you understand the hurt and the ache they feel when they think of the love one they just losted.

I want to send many hugs to all of you. Please remember that life is way to short and each day that goes by I see that it gets shorter. Just grab the one you love and let them know you need and love them. It will put a smile on their face and a wonderful feeling in their heart. Give a little of yourself and it will be one of your greatest gifts

~hugs~

May 1

Wow May already! Time sure flies fast. So many great things happened and one of them is a friend of mine lent me a book on Feng Shui. I'm so glad she did it has changed my life. I'm starting to change things in my home and life. I'm starting to find myself and what I want. I have taken some steps to reach out to some people that I know I need in my life. I have truly missed them. Things happened that we drifted apart and stupid things had gotten in the way. Now I'm taking steps to forgive. I may not forget but I know that I've become bitter to so many things that I stopped growing. So now it's time to let go it only has made me a loner. Not anymore I want to think positive for today at least! lol All this makes so much sense to me but may not to you.

But what I'm getting at is get yourself a book on Feng Shui and you will understand. Also my grandson is 8 months today!! I just adore that little guy. He was the start of my changing for the better and the rest seems to slowly fall in the place. I'm starting to start to smell the flowers as they say since I work in a greenhouse! lol Anyways sending much love and hugs your way

Cherlee

Today is a low day!

Today is one of those days that you just feel low and you just can't get yourself back up. I woke up at 8 am in a great mood and as the day progress things just went down hill. So that's about it for now I just don't want to get into it right now. But at least I got this much out! lol

Thanks for listening

~Hugs~
Cherlee

Wow George Jones is awesome!

I went to see George Jones last night with my dad. It was awesome it brought so many great memories and some sad but I realize that I let things go for once. For dad's birthday in January Mel and I bought Dad tickets to go see his favorite Country singer. Dad and I went last night I took some pics and videos and bought dad a few souvenirs. It was wonderful to see my dad so happy he was so happy that when George came out I saw him wiping his the tears of joy away. I silently hand over some tissue and he took it with his blue eyes sparkling with happiness! That's a moment I will treasure forever. To see my dad that's been in so much pain with his knees these days and other things it was nice to see him smile and laugh. He sang along with George and this meant the world to him. I'm starting to see where I get my soft heart from.

When the sad songs hit the tears flowed down my eyes and I'd look over at dad he was doing the same thing! lol It was a great night all around to share a special moment in time with my dad has gave me a lot hope that great things do happen to people. My life has been such a ups & down emotional ride that I forgot to let my hair down so to speak. lol And I realize that the little things sure mean the most.

I did have a sad moment but it was also a great memory was when George sang " He stopped loving her today." The tears really flowed but they have been sad tears for a lose but when I looked over at dad and he smiled knowing why I was crying it seemed to make it better somehow! The look of understanding in his eyes and knowing that he didn't think I was being silly made it ok to let it go. So dad thank you for being you. This is one Concert that I will never forget.

I love you Dad!

Sending you all hugs
~Cherlee~

Happy Easter!!

Happy Easter from Ty and I!! He's growing up so fast. Sending many hugs your way!

Cherlee

Life just flew by!

Funny I haven't been on here for so long and I thought it was just yesterday! A lot has happen like another flood, septic tank problems, wiring problems, flu, ect. Sunday is Ty's Baptism and today he is 6 months old! Time sure does fly. The poor little guy has a rash all over. It's terrible he's look like he as measles or chicken pox! But it's not it's Eczema. Well everyone says he takes after me because he has such sensative skin poor baby.

I have to go to bed I know this is short but I plan on visiting everyone's blog and catch up after this weekend. Sending many hugs your way!
~Cherlee~

Well it's been awhile

Hiddy all I've been sick with my stomach infection and a flu so I'm recovery at this time. I'm doing ok so far. Will come check out all your blogs soon. My grandson is growing like a weed everyday and I can't get enough of him. So many things have happen but will write soon to tell yah.

Sending many hugs your way
~hugs~
Cherlee

Hi

Well my basement is dry but not totally back in order. Mel's carpet will stay cut she not to please but I'm not replacing it with another new carpet for the forth time yet. I have to go to the laundry mat it sucks but it could be worse. I've been really busy with Yuwie. I like it but I miss my blogger friends the most. I will make sure I write on here. On Yuwie I don't put this sorta stuff I'd rather keep it here. I talk about different stuff like making money ect.

I'm enjoying that grandson of mine. I knew that a grandchild makes your world brighter but I never realized how bright! When it gets to much I run and pick him up and look in his eyes and I just giggle. He has the blues of eyes and they are laughing most of the time. I hugs and kiss him and he loves it. I try not think of the day he starts walking because he going to see Nana coming and run away screaming because he know I'm going to give him hugs and kisses! lol

He's the love of my life. And I look at my beautiful daughter in a different light too. I see what a wonderful loving person she has become. She is a great mom sometimes it really surprises me. She has grown up so much in the last year it amazes me. I just wish she didn't hurt so much over missing her dad. I wish I could fix that one but I can't.

I hope that life gets better. I remember I use to be so positive about things. My favorite saying was things will work out they always do. Life has push that down.
But I'm starting to think that way again. I don't want to let friends, family and life get me down. I know it will but I wanna have a better outlook on life. I need to so my health will get better.

Went for my stomach and bowel scope. I have Diverticulitis's so I need to eat more fiber the pain can be really bad sometime but I go see him at his office for help on that. I finally found out it's not in my head it's is a real pain in the ass lol! But I was cleared on all other things at that end and I was happy. I had one also for my stomach and he found and infection of some kind and he took some biopsy of that and I will find out about that at the same time on my next visit.

It felt wonderful to find out it wasn't in my head all this pain. My doc kinda thought it was nothing but he was smart enough to send me to a specialize. And he found something.

I was awake for the whole thing. I was so nervous. Everyone told me I was going to be drugged and I wouldn't know what was happening and I didn't like that I hate that feeling of not having control of my body. I was having major anxiety attacks and the nurse was great I told her I don't take meds for my attacks anymore I try to do it without and she told me she was going to give me something to relax and I started to tell her that I didn't want to be stones and she just took a small needle out. My worse fear is choking and having a scope going down my throat was freaking me out.

But both scopes weren't that bad at all. For the stomach I had to gargle with this horrible stuff to freeze my throat. I started to go into a bad attack when my throat was frozen because I couldn't swallow! So I sorta stop breathing a bit she had to calm me on that one she was wonderful. I felt I was being a pain in the ass and she said that she was surprise I wasn't freaking more. Then I had to put this bite guard in my mouth and down went the scope I didn't feel it in my throat but felt it in my tummy. It only took a few minutes and done. Then it was the other end and that hurt near the end when he was up farther and then it was over. I was surprise because I look at everything and asked question! I was so proud of myself. The doctor was so nice and told me if he could have his patient more like me asking questions and awake it would make his job so much easier. When I went in recovery the nurses were surprise that I was awake through the whole thing. They told me everyone that comes out is under when they get us.

The doctor came and talk to me about everything in recovery and the nurses keep asking if I remember what he said. I had to keep telling them yes and repeated what the doctor said! My dad told me he was the same way. I'm thankful that I was awake because it was something I was always curious about but was to scare to look at.

Well I blah blah way to much again.

So anywho life can be a bowl of cherries but it can be the pits sometime!!

Sending love and Hugs your way
Cherlee

In the New Year it starts again!

Well I'm really worn down now. Mel, Al and I have been moping up water in my basement that didn't leak until those nasty ass contractor work on my basement. The water smell like sewer! I have a bathroom downstairs but it has a leak and you can't get to the pipes because they closed everything in and the hole they made in my basement wall the asses were supposedly fixed last year is leaking all over the basement. I called NB Housing to see if they can help and the contractor refuses to come here. He got the same responds I got. So now Mel's room is in shambles and most of my carpets are ruined had to be throw out for the forth time. And I have a wash machine I can't use because it cause a water leak and we can't see where it's coming from. Mel's carpet is cut in half because it was that part was totally ruin. I feel really broken I have been fighting since 2005. How do contractors get away with not fixing the problems they caused. He said my place cost him to much money he losted. Understand but is it my fault No it's his workers. I do have pics but will post later.


He's sitting in a beautiful home he build while working on my place. His worker didn't come to my place half the time because they were working on his home. Loser! No I'm the loser for trusting him I guess. Now we have to take more money to get this problem fixed and will everything that's going on I say what money! Well I'm don't feel like writing anymore. Talk to you all soon. Hope your lives are going better! I wanted to keep this upbeat but I really feel broken. DON'T EVER HIRE BOWSER CONSTRUCTION IN SACKVILLE NB!

Sending many hugs and love your way
Cherlee

Happy Birthday Bruce!

You taught me how to love; you taught me how to live; you taught me how to laugh; you taught me how to cry, but when you left, you forgot to teach me how to forget you.

Author Unknown


Today would of been Bruce's 45th Birthday! Mel's having such a hard time but she's getting through. I told her it's ok to say Happy Birthday to him even if he's not on this earth. He's still with us everyday but in a different form now. I remember him saying when I was with him if he ever died he probably wouldn't be missed. If he'd only knew how much he is missed! But maybe he does?!

Anyways thanks for listening! Sending love and hugs all your way.

~Cherlee~

Happy New Year Everyone!

Wow it's been a busy few months I must say! Sometime I felt like I couldn't catch my breath. But maybe things will start to slow down a bit. But I do have a lot of doctor appointments to look into. On Jan 22 I'm having two scoops done. A little nerves about those but hey it has to be done to find out what's wrong right???! lol

I want to finally take care of myself for once. I told the crew that this New Year is the year of Improve Me! Let's see how long that will last. tehe

In the last month I had one friend find me and we talk all the time it great. She may not live close but by phone we can keep in touch it's wonderful. And another friend I found on Facebook! Wow the month of Dec was a month of surprise for me!

Christmas day I was totally overwhelmed with my gifts. Wow I was so overwhelmed that half way thur unwrapping I had to stop for a half an hour. My parents really went all out this year! Mel always goes all out for her mom! She really knows what to get me and put a huge smile on my face. Al also surprise me it was a wonderful Christmas. Hubby wasn't home but hey he really is never here anyways. You sorta just get use to it. Why get disappointed when he doesn't make an effort anyways. But anyways enough of that!

Well I'm making this very short for now because I have become very tired. I have done alot today so I thought I write a little to say Hi!

Sending many hugs your way!
~Cherlee~

~Merry Christmas Everyone~

Girly Comments & Graphics

Wishing you lots of love and happiness this season. ~Hugs~
Cherlee

Yuwie

I'm have joined Yuwie blogs. No I'm not letting this one go. I'd miss you all way to much. But there is a different with Yuwie blogs you write and make money by viewing pages, making friends and getting them to view your page. Getting referrals ect. It's fairly new so it's really great to get in now. I have to make some extra cash because with all that has happen I need to pay of the extras with Christmas and other things that happen like Life!! lol

So I looked into this and I thought I like blogs writing. Just like I've been writing for helium and I already just got my first $25.00 dollars in my paypal account. I really like this. Also I have been paid twice by Ads by Google. I have made $200.00 doing that. Whenever I'm on a site I'm know to click on these ads I know it helps whoever is has them up and most of the time I'm interested in what the ad talks about and it only takes a bit of time. So if you like the ad at the top of my page and if it intersts you why not click and check it out. This money I put towards my grandson. Love it! There are many ways to make some money online why not try check them out. I have another blog that I'm setting up with some money making sites and other ways to make money. I'm finally taking the time. Even though I'm busy I'm trying to get it all together. So talk soon sending many Hugs
~Cherlee~

Hi

Hi I noticed I let this blog go once again. I've been so busy trying to keep it all together I forgot to write. Well there were some great things that happened for once. I found 4 people that have been important in my life that I have lost contact with. People may be hating facebook but I found friends and family and it's great. One of those people is a long lost best friend! It was great we talked on the phone for 9 hours last night and it was like old times!!! She was a part of my past that I really did miss.

She help me with unanswered questions I had. It's funny I hadn't talk to her in years and I was so nervous on the phone for about a min. My shyness is what I hate but once I heard her laugh the shyness left in seconds! I also found my brother's best friend and M is so excited to talk to him. I found a childhood friend and we have been talking about old times. I sure needed this after all the sad events that have been happening over the last few years. It's nice to talk to someone that has know me forever and I don't have to be someone I'm not.

Hubby ended up going back to the old company he worked for and they welcome him with open arms. So he's back on the road and out of my hair. Money is so tight but what the hell it could be worse. I'm not going to let this ruin my Christmas with my grand baby. Tyson is growing like a weeds and getting cuter everyday! So right now I have to run and get some stuff done. So sending you all huge Hugs! And all the love you need! I've been missing you all among the hectic parts of my life!!!
~Cheryl~
p.s This is Ty and me singing Christmas songs

I need to talk about baby Leah

I have many things happening around me at once a week ago it wasn't a very happy time. I had to have a tooth pulled it was horrible I'm just getting over it now. It's been 9 days already. Hubby lost his job. A week ago last weds my brother called me to tell me about a murder suicide that happened and it was one of his bosses that was killed. Her ex boyfriend shot her then himself. She was only 35 years old so I was shock because I sorta got to know her. About 4 hours after that my mom calls to tell that one her her foster girls baby died! Her daughter was 4 months old! (My parents have been foster parents for 20 years and I've gotten to like a lot of them.)



I'll call her G she hasn't had a good year at all. Many thing have happened to her this year but this was the worst. She found out she was pregnant with twin and they were due in Aug 18 I think around there anyways but her body couldn't hold them anymore she gave birth to two little girls on June 27Th. They were born way to soon but they were strong enough to keep going. Finally G took them home and they continued to grow and get stronger each day. I was suppose to go see the girls but for some reason something kept me from seeing them.

So that when mom call to tell me that one of G's twins died my heart just stopped in my chest and I couldn't breath. I just couldn't speak I was in shock. All I kept thinking was poor G! She has no family ect for her hubby's. So I decided to get a hold of her. She finally contact me because she wasn't at her home she was at her sister in laws home because the police did a lock down on all her things. Social services got involved and took her children away. The new law is if a baby dies they shut the family down right away. In a way this is good. But on the other hand when
you know this family hadn't done a thing. It's horrifying

All I keep thinking was this poor girl can't even grief for her 4 month old baby. She and her hubby also has to be questioned over and over again. She can't see her other kids and she can't even go home. I just didn't know what to say but I did tell her I'm here for her and she was thankful for that.

So she and I talk back and forth through email when she had time. I told her I didn't want to call her being that she was not at her home. So last Sunday I spent time at a funeral home saying good bye to a beautiful angel looking little girl called Leah! She looked just like an angel. The white coffin was so small. Mel and my mother just stood for about 5 Min's looking at her in shock. She looked so peaceful and I was so thankful for that. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. The death of a child is the worst of the deaths. They were cleared last week we all knew they would. Poor Baby Leah died of SIDS (Sudden Infant Death Syndrome)

So this post is dedicated to baby Leah Kay Richardson born June 27Th passed Nov 12, 2007. I may have not known you that well but I know your mommy and she's is a wonderful soul. I know that she gave you the best of herself when you were on this earth precious. Please watch over her sweetie I know your in a better place now. Bye Bye sweet baby Leah I'm sending many hugs your way. Love ~Cherlee~

The Quilt Ol'Lady Made For Ty!

Here are pics of the beautiful made quilt Ol'Lady made for our Ty. Sorry it took so long for pics but finally here they are. It's so nice to know that there are such wonderful people in this world that have hearts of gold. And Ol' Lady is one of them! Thanks for being a wonderful part of our lives hun! *~Hugs to All~*