Spring is here and I'm not as SAD!

Wow yesterday spring has sprung on us. It really surprised me all the hell. Where has all the time gone. The winter was not a bad one for once weather wise. To know it spring makes me feel more alive.
I know finally my sad's (Seasonal Affective Disorder click this link for info on sad's) finally going to start going away. I love the fall but when sad's starts showing up in my life it really sucks! I don't want to take anything for it cause I have to deal with it without meds. Been on to many in the past to even think about going that route again. I'm tired of being the doc's test bunny with new drugs . I was diagnosed
with this when I was about 26 years old. I thought I was going a bit nuts when the fall came along.

I seem to hide like a bear ready for a long winter. This year was a bit hard on me. It seem to hit really hard in Jan and Feb. This is were my weight gain started. But this year even though I started to gain again and the weight shifted lower on my body! (hehehe sad but true) One great thing that came out of this years sad's is that I join curves. I think I'm starting to get control of it a bit more. Each year I learn more and more about what to do. I just hate the fact that I could sleep all day and stay up all night. This really screws up my life. People tell me change the way you sleep it's easier said than done. First of all I could stay up for two days.

Then try to sleep at night and toss and turn all night long and still not fall asleep until the light starts to show then I fall asleep. Sometimes I feel like a vampire. I've had some people say that all I do is sleep but the amount of sleep I do really get is about 4 hours of solid sleep a day or night whichever time I do get to sleep. I feel so sad and unhappy. Somedays I just want to stay in bed all day. I've been known to do that. It's easy to stay in bed than deal with the unhappy feeling that I feel inside. The stress in my life in the last 15 years has brought it on even stronger. I know it has to do with the sun not coming out as much but I know as the years go by stress has made it worse. That's one of the reason I starting blogging this year. To release some of the stress in my life. Each day I been getting a bit better. I'm glad spring's in the air but man time still is flying by. You know with my disorders stress is the number one reason why I feel the way I do. These days everyone one has more stress than we can handle.

We need an outlet to get this weight off of our shoulders and I found blogging is a start for me. So if you need a stress reliever start blogging. Don't be afraid to take the plunge. It's a fun plunge. If your worried about what other think. Don't because most of the time when you write something about yourself they have felt the same way a few times in their lives so they can relate! My cousin Tanya is blogging for the first time yesterday and I'm so proud of her! I find this a wonderful way to soul search!! Welcome to the world of blogging Tanya you won't regret it! lol

So if you feel you have it do some research. Your not going crazy your just sad!!

Cherlee